"EMO"

Im not or wasn't really emotional today, but i was looking at photos of makeup on google images and all these so called "emo pictures" came up. personally, i think the word EMO and stereotyping people as emo is completely wrong. if you think you could never be emo, your wrong. saying that, is saying, you've never been emotional in your life, since emo is just a shortened word for emotional. but anyway, whenever those pictures come up, they have the coolest composition! way cooler than any other regular photo. so today, i tried to do an "emo" shoot. i put some purple, black, and brown eyeshadow on around my eyes and some mascara. here are a few of my favorite from the day. i hope you like them!!!!

Mood Swings and EPL

i wish there were a way for me to express how i feel right now at this very moment. i have a wave of emotions coming and going in my direction. sadness, anxiousness, longing, disappointed...
first things first. i need to write what i'm feeling down or else i wont remember it in 5 minutes. my mind goes in loopty loops, from thought to thought, a hundred miles an hour and trust me, i wont remember. NOTE TO SELF: for every paycheck you get, take out 25% and put it in your "Travel" piggy bank your making tomorrow (5/12/2011) out of a gallon of soda/milk bottle. duck tape it around so you won't see how much money is actually going in there. in a year, you'll be surprised.
i know in my posts, i change from 1st person to the third person. sorry.

Lets review my goals for yesterday. Technically still today because its really late on the 11th. :)

• Invest in a planner.....DONE
• scrapbook. i didn't actually get to scrapbook, but i DID go to walmart and print out the pictures i want to document. 
• Read a few chapters in a book. I read a few pages, does that count?
• Play with the pickup for my viola i got yesterday. YES!!!! so fun! now i just have to find songs.
• find songs. ha. thats an obvious no.
• visit spencer. i was so planning on it! except he has OTHER friends!!!! lame. :)

Today's Goals:

make a money bank for my Travels

(sorry i couldn't find a picture to go along with that)

visit my good friend Brad that i've known since....i think 4th grade till, NOW :) he's visiting from Denver, Colorado. fun fact about him...he watched and got addicted i'd like to add, to smallville. we watched like 5 episodes everyday. 

go on a walk

short TERM goals

GOALS FOR TODAY:

Invest in a planner

Scrapbook a few months of my life away

Read a few chapters in a book

Play with my new pick up for my viola

Find some songs on itunes to play for Saturday!!!

Visiting Spencer :D

off! Have a wonderful day blogspot 

Brandon

For those of you who Haven't met my man...

Meet: Brandon

Handsome right? 

Brandon and i have been goin steady for 3 months now

Here are some things about him i want to share:

He is a little over 6 feet tall

He drives a green honda

He's 19

He hates sushi (just like me!) ew

He has an iphone, macbook pro, works at apple

His sisters names are Kayla and Jennifer. 

His nieces and nephew's names are Peyton, Amilia, and Korbin

He is hilarious

His favorite basketball team is the Lakers

His eyes are blue

He gets along with my family great

He beatboxes hardcore

He sent me huge flowers to my work on valentines day

His parents are still together and amazing. (you never find that anymore)

His favorite band is Kings of Leon

Favorite cereal: Capt'n Crunch

He's very patient and loyal

He's really smart

He drives a stick shift

He loves aviators sunglasses

He is willing to do whatever you want to do

He takes me on adventures up to the snow, to san francisco, through jamestown and murphys, placerville...

He installed his own sound system in his car. 

He reminds me of a skater dude. (when i first met him and went home that night, thats how i remembered him. and the fact that his hair made him look like zac effron from high school musical)

He made me obsessed with one republic.

He now has probably more than a thousand pictures of us on his computer because i document the moment so much, and he never used to. well, not as much as i do.
He looks like his dad. thats a good thing :)

there's a lot more wonderful and interesting things about brandonburg (my nickname for him) and i'll write some more facts about him later. :)

When we first started dating, i wanted a to do a photoshoot with Brandon but i didn't really know how that would go over asking him, ya know. cause we had been dating for only a month or something and it can sound weird. But thats just me. i love taking pictures/videos to remember the moment. So we asked his sister that i had only met a few times...to take pictures of us! Jen was totally up for it :) I got so excited! people might have thought it was way too soon to take pictures of us "together" in that way, but i didn't care. I told Bee that we had to theme our shoot by wearing something different than our normal clothes. i came up with the "cowboy" theme. Bee wasn't up for it at first because he couldn't wear something that lame! :) I took him to Goodwill to pick out a shirt. I found some overalls there too and told him i'd wear these all day! just to rub it in his face ;) we went to Parker's hot dog shop after since it was located right next to Goodwill. We both got chili dogs if i remember correctly, but were gross!! thats where we took one of the FIRST pictures of us both together on his phone. weird to think about. a lot has happened since then. anyway, we went on the photoshoot with Jen and it was so much fun! It wasn't awkward like i thought it would be. She wanted to practice shooting so it was perfect. and wouldntchaknowit, her photos came out SO GOOD! i loved them all! I was so pleased! We went to his house afterwards and showed his mom and dad :D They were both laughing at how excited WE were. lame. haha really fun experience!!!! here are some more pictures from the shoot that i really like

:)

I am very lucky to have Brandonburg and i will write our adventures down when i have more time. I'm off!!!

Inspired

i get inspired so easily...whether it be something i see, hear, feel, etc. 

City and C0lour 

has totally got me inspired to pick up the guitar i have laying in my house, acquire some calluses on my already viola-callused fingers, get over my stupid fear of singing in front of others, and learn some songs. 

You know what i'd love to learn how to do?

Write songs.

Like lyrics and stuff....

I get so jealous of people, like my amazing brother Cameron, 

because he can sit down in one night and write a song 

that, when you read the lyrics, sounds like he had countless

nights trying to figure out the perfect words and phrases.

Nope. One night. 

and they're good too!

why didn't I get that gene???

I came across this song, Yellow by Jem 

a while ago. its very calming. her voice is like mine...or rather, mine is like hers. very airy. i keep thinking, well if i can sound like her, i could totally sing this song as well as her! maybe i'll try someday.

Relationships:

can i just talk for a minute? I've been in plenty of relationships, and the one thing i keep seeing is, 

after a certain point, everyone gets boring. i'm blunt, by the way. I keep thinking, maybe its me. i think it is. how could it be anything else? I saw on a movie once, the woman character kept saying how SHE wasn't ready for a relationship. and people these days take "i'm not  ready for a relationship" as: i don't want a relationship with YOU. or try harder. somethin or other. 

I really and truly feel that i'm never ready. like, i'm not cut out for a relationship. i wish i were. How do i change this. 

Erin, my sister, and I played in the pit orchestra for "Into the woods" these past couple of weeks. I have to say, tonight (4/09/11) being the last night, i miss it so much. one thing i know about myself is, i hate change. and the fact that this particular show/cast members/orchestra mates are very close to my heart, i'm sad. we had 9 performances with two dress rehearsals. i' got invited by David Dwelle, conductor, over facebook. i just have to say, everything is revolved around facebook. ridiculous haha Erin kinda dropped my name to him and he contacted me. and i'm so glad he did! This experience has been amazing. ok. so let me tell you about the people i met.

 First: David. SO cute. ahem i mean handsome. David is very humble, and has the best facial expressions. I love watching him conduct. He is so in his element it seems like. I don't know him that well because this was my first production with him...but he is a really nice, fun guy!


MaRtHa: Martha is the cello player. She has blonde hair and glasses and super funny. She became my friend when she took my offer for peanut m&ms. Usually people say, oh no thanks. its ok. she doesn't. she knows what she wants and she will make it happen. I really like that about her. Martha's daughter was in the play--a stepsister who goes blind in the second half. Very funny =) Martha also joined the group of buying sustenance for me, david thorpe, and barry, and of course, anyone else who wanted some. We all become real fun good friends. 
I got the first peanut m&ms and caramels.  


barry: Barry is so annoying. reason being because he "SWEARS" he doesn't use the scrabble helper although EVERY word he plays on Words With Friends is 30 points or more. He's a cool guy though. :) He's closest to my age, so i know a little bit more about him than Martha, David, and David Thorpe. Apparently he sings (like Ryan Adams) and plays the guitar. I have yet to hear him. Likes everything i hate, as food goes. ie sushi, thai, cheeseburgers....i dont mind cheeseburgers but eh? not my first pick. Barry is one of the FEW guys, to me, who has a mustache and goatee and pulls it off quite well. His teeth are perfectly straight and he likes to joke. "You jest!!!" thats one of my favorite lines in Into the Woods. He is taken, as am i. 22....


David Thorpe: 1st viola player. I've played with David before in the side by side with the Sacramento Philharmonic years ago. He is a really fun man. haha every time i think about him i laugh because David is one of those men who spends more time texting and typing on his ghetto non-smart phone without T-9 texting, more than he actually talks on it. He is one amazing violist also. David can hear a bass line, and improvise on the viola. like jazz viola. which reminds me of one time before one of the shows started, Barry was fiddling on the bass, ha oxymoron, "fiddling" on the bass.....anyway, he was just walkin up and down on the bass and David heard him, and started jammin it up with him! they sounded awesome too! it makes me feel kinda stupid because i can't improvise like that. Good job David. :D He is a healthy bloke too. When i told everyone i was bringing in m&ms, David came in that night with a trader joe's bag and showed me what he had brought in. those funyon things, onion chips? GROSS. and carrots. then the next night, he said he brought in carrots and cough drops. haha i said something along the lines of, wow what a combo. :D What a guy. he's funny. I had fun with him while it lasted. 

babysitting!

Kiera :)

aww kylie haha

playin outside in the freezing weather. kylie's showing off her Cheese. lol i think she had about...50 of those that night.

kiera is so easy to please :D

trying to take pictures and push kylie HIGHER on the swing. :D

amber! look!

aw we had a visitor before bed. Aubrey!!

i think i love this one.

aubrey and i :) :)

old spaghetti factory

the best thing to me is going to old spaghetti factory at...9 54 at night and walking in to get my food. its already on the counter waiting for me. they are all pissed at me because i'm keeping them awake and making them stay till the very last moment. 


the next best thing. when you get the food, you don't know where to eat it. come on people, don't give me this answer. A: go home. ugh. i'm at home all the time! so no. i'm not going home. i was really trying to think of a place to go that wouldn't require me to go outside where its nippy and make me down my food in seconds while embracing the freezing cold. my brain at this time of night doesn't work...so i just kept driving. my food was getting cold by the way. 


3rd best thing...no one to eat a fabulous dinner with. YAY. :( its actually very very depressing. you should be worried if you have gone through your entire phone memory and couldn't find one contact that would eat food with you. ps...thats me. 


after the third best thing? you come home and start the usual. editing pictures from the event that day. well, it just so happens that the computer i edit on loves to break down on me, and even greater messes up my pictures and doesn't save them. WOO HOO. thanks optiquest Q9 computer. you suck.


1, 2, 3, 4, 555555...love it when i come home from scarfing down food that i wasn't genuinely hungry for to a family who asks me how the movie was. oh yeah...i think. i told them i was going to a movie, BY MYSELF, ;) see how my life is going? my brain must have too concentrated on the food i had in the passenger seat next to me. it forgot to take me to the movie. the wonders of amber's brain. lol


6th fabulous thing. i Get to, not Have to, Get to watch King Kong with the male parental tonight. yipee. sounds invigorating. 


P.S. i go to get gas in my car before i hurried over to osf (old. spaghetti....you got it. i'll shut up) and whos car do i park next to but the ole DAD. sErIoUsLy?!?!?!?!?!?!?!


"hi dad." 
"well hi!"
"wow this is awkward"
"see you at home"
"yup"


Great night wouldn't you say?